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Mission Life as a Teenager
by Daniel Tibayan - September 2017

My name is Daniel and I’ve been a part of the parish of St John the Compassionate Mission for about 4 years now. Being the ripe age of 18, I am part of the youth at the Mission. Finding St John’s was one of the most impactful things that have happened to my life thus far. I grew up attending an Anglican church, so there were a lot of changes that I had to go through. Changes like making the sign of the cross, venerating icons and my least favourite of everything, fasting. But not only did my way of prayer change, but the beautiful, funny and charming personality that I currently have was molded into what it is now because of how involved I was at the Mission, not just the church. There were various things that helped build my character, this included St John’s, but it also branched out to the Scarborough Mission “Good Neighbours” and St Mary’s refuge, where I attended OWL youth camp as both a camper and a counsellor. My first experience with OWL camps happened when my parents asked me if I wanted to go to camp literally 2 days before the start of the camp. I never went to any form of camping before, so I wanted to go with a lot of excitement. Within the one week that I was at camp, I formed bonds with the youth at St John’s, and even the other campers from different communities. But I think it was just before the summer of 2016 was when I felt my life had already begun to change. I was offered a summer job from Paul to work at St John’s Bakery, the bakery next to the Mission. I agreed almost immediately because I was searching for a summer job for quite a while at that time. Plus working at a bakery sounded more exciting than flipping burgers at McDonald’s. My first day at work, I obviously expected to be in the bakery, just as my job title implied, but that was most definitely not the case. I spent my first day doing my hours at the mission rather than the bakery. I was later told that I would be splitting my hours between the Mission and the bakery. The first 3 weeks that I worked in the Mission, it was being renovated, so I took part in tearing and rebuilding the place the times that I was there. I think I was in the bakery 2-3 times a week. I learned how to shape and pre-shape the different doughs that were being made there. Both the Mission and the bakery have interesting and admirable characters. After the Mission’s renovation, we were finally able to open breakfast, lunch and dinner for the community in the area. Paul went on vacation around the time we started to serve food, so I wasn’t sure who would guide me to do what. Luckily the other workers/volunteers were kind enough to show me the ropes. I washed and dried dishes, served food, and sat down to talk to some of the people of the community. I felt a rush of love every time I walked into the Mission to begin my day of work. In fact, I slowly stopped thinking of going to the Mission as a job, and more of something like a hobby. When my job contract ended, I still came to the Mission on Saturdays to volunteer. I probably would have gone more often than I did if school didn’t interfere with the scheduling of the lunches. Since I was taught what to do during lunches, it was easy to welcome new volunteers and show them how we do things. At that point, I had realized how easy it was for me to talk to people now. This new found confidence was even applied outside of the Mission. The first week I went volunteering after the New Year, Father Nicolaie told me about the Kids Klub that conveniently occurs right after I’m done volunteering at lunches on Saturdays. He told me that I should volunteer for that as well. I was a bit anxious at the idea of it. A bunch of kids aged 5-12 seeing a 17 year old invading their fun. I thought they would all disrespect me because I was a new person. I agreed to do it just to see how it went. I walked into the basement after finishing my duties up stairs, and was surprised to see an interesting man named Gary who also attends St John’s as a member of the parish. He and a woman named Cassandra lead the Kids Klub. My first day of Kids Klub was very interesting. In an attempt to try and loosen up the kids to start singing, Gary decided to host a Kids Klub talent show for the kids and volunteers to show something that was unique or interesting. I was put on the spot and didn’t know what to do. I went up and did a stupid magic trick I saw on SpongeBob many years ago. It either made the kids laugh or amazed. I think all the kids liked me at that point and my name was quickly learned by all the kids. Every week now consisted of me going to the mission on Saturdays to volunteer upstairs serving food or washing dishes and then going to Kids Klub right after. I was in grade 12 during this time. Post-secondary application deadlines were very close and I was miles away from knowing what I wanted to do. I decided to take a year off and work. I was then offered a job at the bakery again. Now I currently work at the bakery as one of the mixers, mixing the doughs. After being offered the job, I was also asked to be a camp counselor for OWL youth camps. I agreed to do that also for some experience. Working as a counselor gave me more experience working with kids and youth. I was also away from society for a while, which was refreshing in its own way. When I came back from camp, I was introduced to the Scarborough Mission called Good Neighbours. Good Neighbours is held in a small apartment being rented by the Mission, and welcomes the youth and adults that live in the community. They offer donated necessities to those that need it, and kind of do an after school program for the kids to have fun. I now currently work in the bakery 3 days a week, volunteer at St John’s 2 times a week, and volunteer at Good Neighbours once a week. My life is a lot busier now than I thought it would be during my year off, but I enjoy it, and I’m learning new things every day.


 

Notes from Mary Jo Leddy’s talk
At St John’s 26th Donors’ Dinner, 7 June 2012

(after telling the story about why she instantly knew she wanted to accept the invitation to speak at St John’s – last Christmas, on a Friday, somebody phoned and asked if she would see a refugee couple who were about to be deported. She said she’d see them on Monday. They arrived unannounced half an hour later. When she saw their faces, she knew she had to help. She found a lawyer who thought he could make a case for them but he would need time, and in the meantime they needed a refuge. So she and the staff phoned almost 20 churches asking for a place – they had many reasons for saying No, one was about plumbing, everybody said “but we’re too busy, we’re getting ready for Christmas” – she thought, ‘but his name is JOSEPH and he’s looking for an inn for himself and his wife!” Finally somebody phoned St John’s and immediately they said, “Send them right over.” She said she wasn’t surprised that St John’s said yes because she already knew they welcome the poor.”

But at St John’s, you don’t call them ‘the poor’ – you know their names, their faces. They are not a social problem or category. You’ve seen their faces. It’s the face-to-face encounter that you create a space for here that transforms all of us.

Thank you for this willingness to be with people and allow them to be your neighbour. This defines us as Christians: when we’re with people, strangers who come to the door, we don’t put them into little social boxes – refugees, the poor, the displaced. With Jesus, we say: they are our brothers and sisters.

Our greatest act of faith is every day to struggle to say: you are my neighbour. This is what you do here every day. You live in a room full of compassion where you allow yourself to be moved by one who is not necessarily your family or friend. This is the compassion of the Good Samaritan. If you’re faithful to this compassionate outreach, it leads you to care about justice, about systems that leave people. To walk side by side with people is to begin to see the systems in our city, in our country, that make it more difficult for them, and us, to be human and to be happy.

We look for a more just world in which it’s a little easier for people to be good, to be just (Peter Maurin). With more justice fewer things get in the way of us loving one another.

When you work here, garbage and its cost become important – you see systems at the ground level, the effect on people of decisions being made now.

Our commitment to the people we’re with gives us a sharp focus on what is just and what is unjust in the world.

We’re living now in a difficult time. There’s a mean spirit in this country – the exercise of social cruelty. We need reasons to hope – not big reasons, real reasons. As long as something is happening that’s good, that’s kind, that’s just, it gives us reason to hope – as with your response at Christmas – it reminded us that we’re not alone in our struggles – that we’re all gathered by the same Spirit, the Spirit of Jesus who commands us to love our neighbour.

I thank you for that. You sustain groups of people you don’t even know about – like us at Christmas.

You know only a tiny fraction of the good you do. It ripples out and touches people. We’re all held in the hand of God.

What are the big tour spots of Toronto? The Art Gallery, City Hall? They aren’t the most important places in this city. This city is upheld by places like this – that sustain the fabric of this city. We thank you for that.


Gerasimo and the Lion: an Allegory Glimpsed in the Heart of Toronto

Mary – 3 March 2011

Gerasimo is famous for having had the courage to go up to a roaring lion. Any person of sense would have run the other way and not looked back. Perhaps it went something like this... I can imagine because at St John's Mission, right here in Toronto, where there are wounded creatures aplenty, I've seen it happen, too.

Instead of concentrating on keeping himself out of harm's way, Gerasimo wanted to find out what was behind that roar. He went up to the lion. He was within reach of its claws, its magnificent mouth with the sharp fierce teeth. He could feel its breath on his neck as he bent over it—for he'd seen a trail of red blood glancing down one of its paws. It was not the wounds the beast might inflict on him that occupied him, but the wound the beast was suffering from.

Astonishingly, the King of the Forest was staying quiet rather than attacking him for his desire to help; having been in the wild before, Gerasimo knew what it was to be bitten or scratched, mauled or maimed, by the one you were trying to help. Now that he was close enough, he could see that the paw was swollen and irritated. He took the greatest risk of all: he touched. The animal must have known both gentle touch and rough touch, for this gentle touch it allowed, though he could feel it trembling. Now that he was close up, and the animal wasn't hindering him by taking measures to protect itself, he could see clearly enough what was causing the pain which made the lion lash out; no deep mystery here.

Gerasimo had the tools—his own hands—and he had the courage, and he had the desire. Momentum, too, was on his side: he knew that if he turned back now, he most likely would be killed, whereas if he persisted he might be able to save them both. He held the swollen paw in his left hand, and with his right he felt the pad until his thumb recognized the end of the thorn lodged in the great beast's flesh. Only touch could have found the source of the pain. Gerasimo by now was speaking soothing words to the lion, for he knew his next move would be the first one to directly cause pain, which would test the trust that had begun to grow between them. So this was the critical moment. He must use everything he had: voice, touch, attitude. Gathering all his inner conviction, he grasped the thorn between finger and thumb, and slid it quickly out of the animal's flesh.

What surprised Gerasimo was the instant change from fear and danger to joy and friendship. The lion, once it felt the pain leave which for so long had tormented it, leaped for delight and skipped like a kitten around this strange healer. The rest of its life would be spent in loving this man; and when Gerasimo died, the lion too would lay down its head and let go of life.

Is it a fairly-tale from the past? I don't think so. Listening to the story, I suddenly realized it's highly familiar. I've seen it happen, over and over at the Mission. It doesn't always end the same way, but plenty of lions in pain have limped into this place; and staffing the Mission are people who have the courage to come close, maybe close enough to see what's behind it all. Sometimes they get snarled at or scratched for their pains. Sometimes, through persistence, patience and using all the tools at their disposal—food, gentle touch, good instincts, voice, prayer, compassion, daily attention—they are able to touch the source of the pain and make things a little better. Sometimes the lion runs away before they have much chance to get close.

Perhaps it's only rarely they are able to find and remove the thorn. In the meantime, the longer, patient, careful work of coming closer happens in the regular life of the Mission – the meals, the listening, the work, the prayer, the faithful presence, the not-running-away. All these can be rare and precious to someone who is hurting—and maybe hurting others to escape the pain.

An example.

She was from the streets, and she had an attitude. Probably it kept her alive. Her drug habits had left her with some illnesses, both physical and psychological. Somewhere in the world, where she didn't know, she had a child, being raised by somebody she didn't know. She had a small but obedient army of professional service workers. She knew her rights, and she knew her wrongs. “Just try me,” her glance seemed to say, when she was in a certain mood. Well, like the lion, she knew how to roar, and chances are she knew how to bite. Nobody at the Mission had tested her on that last one, but they'd all heard the first. The thorn in her paw? Maybe whatever it was that put her on the streets; maybe what had happened to her since, or the relationships she'd lost along the way, or even the way she felt trapped in the life she was now living. In any case, the thorn's pain was never absent for her. Her ability to be sarcastic, manipulative, biting or just plain mean on demand kept her sharp, and kept her from getting more wounds. But it didn't keep the thorn from digging deeper and deeper into her flesh.

What would you do? How to respect her claws and teeth—not making the mistake of mistaking her for a tame housecat? Get closer a little at a time, so she wouldn't lash out or run away? How to avoid trying to put her in a cage? How to treat her like a human person—with the weaknesses, responsibilities, fears and hopes of a human person—and try to heal? Or, just give up on her and run away—stay safe in the moment, while the forest gets more and more dangerous?

It's not an easy work, even for Gerasimo I suppose. But he seems to be inspiring the hearts of the volunteers and staff at St John's. His courage to care for the wounded, despite the danger, seems alive and well in this place.

 


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Fr. Bernard Funk, Saskatoon/June 2010



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ON A MISSION by Jane Ayer From BAKERS JOURNAL, May 2010


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Dinner June 2009


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06/17/08 Notes